Sunday, December 20, 2009

when dependencies are ditched

I was discussing about my dependencies, over an employee, with a friend three weeks ago. I told her how much trouble I might face if this employee ever resigns. he knows about all the projects we have done so far. he knows about all other employees and clients too. and guess what..................?

Yes! he resigned the very next week. Actually, he tried to ran away. Leaving behind relationship of two years, he gave me ONE DAY NOTICE before he joins his new company.
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Stephanos: I am worried about u
Stephanos: Dear i want to say something to u. i cannot think what to say
me: its ok..i know what u want to say...say it
Stephanos: today i was going for interview they accepted my job ... want me to join on day after tomorrow
me: u can not join that soon
Stephanos: i tried talk them that i am join after one month but they disagree
me: u must give one month notice...as we discussed earlier
Stephanos: they want early.
me: sam, u must serve one month notice
Stephanos: man i am fed up about this
me: i will hire some one and train for work not before one month
Stephanos: please be accept ? what to do man? Now u got fed up .. because of me!
me: i dont know...just be professional if not a friend....i discuss it before as well..that one month notice is requred..
Stephanos: dear i tried to them, they dont have other way.. i asked them for some other date...but they want immediate , i have accepted this offer from them as i can work from you office half day daily
me: i can not release you then...think of our company too..
Stephanos: i am giving u much offer .. dont give salary of this month to me.. i continue ur work for one month or 2. half days work during weekdays and full day on saturday. PLEASE!
me: u know i never fight for money
me: if u want..take ur salary tommorrow and u can go. but i am only expecting professionalism...half day work wont help me or my company
Stephanos: they giving big salary 29K
Stephanos: i told them i get 22k from your office
me: let us talk tomorrow
Stephanos: bit worried. SOrry for trouble u
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I really wanted to retain him so I offered him salary what he was being offered from the other company. He didn't stay! He is keen on joining a MNC which guarantees him job for next 10 yrs or so. I could only guarantee a better personal relationship and same salary..not the multi-storey building, neither confrences at 5 star hotels, and certainly not an ambience of 300 staff!

Tough to sleep, eat or concentrate unless he finally left. Unless I knew, now, there is no way he will stay. He wasn't the best programmer or designer, neither the best man. He was my first employee! a friend at office. a colleague.

tough......tough.........tough.....but the show must go on :) and it will!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

if eyes could touch ...



Ever wondered, what, if eyes could touch? My instant thoughts:

I can feel my girl in public :)
More men will be raped/ murdered/ cascaded than women every year
We will stop being bossy or insulting our juniors
Parents would stop asking questions – rather punish!
Sales guy would stop telling unreasonable prices
Cops wont harass unnecessarily
School principals would stop asking donation
Employees wont ask for salary hike :) and boss wont utter a word about cost cutting
Politicians wont beg votes or make fake promises
List is endless....

Monday, November 9, 2009

Nikon D3000


After months of planning and savings :D I was finally able to buy my first DSLR camera. A "NIKON D3000". So far not good :(. I bought it before Deepawli to capture some of fireworks around and also the light from diyas and candles my sister fixes at every inch of the balcony.
Did I get some good shots? NOPE :(
Fireworks are too tricky to capture. I will have to play with aperture speed and ISO sensitivity - and I can only say it but not make it work.... Pity! Its the same story with everything that is dark. I am not very able to capture the original light/colour of the object. either it gets too bright even without flash when I change a few settings(which I am not sure about) or it gets too dark than the original.
So, in short, its no fun with DSLR cameras except that I can do very well with focus. In day light, my digital camera (again a Nikon) was better, fast and easy :D

Diwali celebrations



Not doing any great with my road side journeys either - not getting much of opportunities to drive after the Agra trip with KV, Shishir(he used to be in the same university in Aberdeen) and Shishir's cousin. I fell asleep while driving back to Delhi and fortunately only the Fender(right), front door(right), bumper(front), bonnet, fog lamp(right, head light(right) has to be repaired :)
After so much loss I am happy to say we were fortunate because I can well imagine what could have happened banging a 2 feet high road divider @ 125kms/hr. We were all safe and were easily able to drive my not so good looking car upto garage.



Thanks to insurance guys - my car looks like before again :). last monday I got an opportunity to drive deep inside villages of Haryana while going for a marriage. We also squeezed some free time and drove to my family village (Sahlasar). It was so good to see our haveli walls intact (doors and windows are ransacked by hundreds of monkeys) and peacocks singing for only few of remaining families in the village. I had a big glass of buffalo's milk after which i couldn't eat anything in the marriage (ice cream is an exception).

Udit and Ankita




Airtel Great Delhi Run




Cool Dude

My urge to travel and drive and capture is shifting from desperation to frustration and I hope my plans for Sunderban jungles (West Bengal) in December-January will be able to calm me for a while. Humans are greedy!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

What is love?

A couple of minutes ago I got an SMS from a dear friend quoting "what is love?".

"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired" was the explanation. Beautiful, isn't it? But is it true? we have been taught(in songs, movies, novels, friends) that love is all about giving and not expecting and bull shit.. so why this irresistible desire when you are not suppose to expect?

what if the desire is to be loved from many? thats GREED :) .... but desire is only the other form of greed? so whats the difference? I dont know... I would like to know, though!

B

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

can a MAN be raped?

Last night was amazing.... I didn't drink, didn't go for a date, didn't watch a movie either. I was chatting to a few of my clients - as many as 4. All from different countries, all complaining about the bad weather and all ready to give me more business :). Sleeping at around 5 AM and getting up at 10.30 AM, I thought its my lucky day and I am going to have a lot of fun!

Leaving for office at around 12PM, I was in perfect mood to finish up work early and to to go service centre for some small issues. BANG! The Innova guy hit the breaks hard and within fraction of seconds I had a very small accident with Innova. As small as nothing was broken, no scratches either (on his car) except that his bumper guard was bent a little. total expense must not be more than 100 rupees !

The Innova had this sticker on the rear and front window which reads POLICE with the Delhi Police's logo on it. The man came out of his car, didn't see if there's any damage at all to his car, came close to me and BANG! again... HE PUSHED ME HARD and threw all the offensive words on me which he might have ever heard or learnt. I pushed myself back and said SORRY, I M READY TO PAY FOR THE DAMAGE and some how controlled the situation. Not actually controlled, but handled it for a while. He asked me for any of my identification proof and I gave him my debit card.
I followed him from janakpuri upto Dwarka so that I can pay for something I didn't do ! I felt like I am just raped ! He finally stopped near a petrol pump, and told me that the bumper costs around 2500 bucks (fool! bumper must be around 6k including the paint) and as he doesn't have time to get it repaired at the moment he is okay if I pay for the Fuel instead. I said OKAY... There he go, he showed me all the scratches and dents on his car saying this has happened just now :D

He was soon accompanied by another man in a white Honda City with the same POLICE stickers sticked on it. The Innova guy said sorry for his unpleasant behaviour and that he is a JAAT and couldn't control his anger and also appreciated that I kept my cool in the tough time. I was a lil relaxed for few seconds and then he said. if you would have shouted back on me - I would have break all your bones...... I felt as if I was RAPED again.

I paid 2190/- for the fuel in his car and his friend's car (lucily both were filled already) and then he said "SORRY FOR DISTURBANCE".

Now tell me, who said that a MAN CAN NOT BE RAPED?

Sunday, May 17, 2009

signs of ageing?

Last night, I was wondering if I am old now. Old enough to behave strangely -
1) I do not get excited on small things
2) I dont, no more, want to get drunk and loose my senses
3) I dont want to meet, chat or talk to many women - thats a serious issue!
4) I have started saving - to spend on next trip but atleast m saving now :)
5) I plan of marrying after two or more years ;)
6) I dont turn my head along with a hot chic passing by
7) I dont play loud music in my car
8) I am more concerned if I am behaving well with others
9) I am getting punctual to reach my work place
10) I am more cautious with what I eat, drink(no Whisky - no Rum - no Vodka - ONLY BEER)

List is never ending but these are the main concerns.. "Naah, m not old. not at all" - this second thought was contradicting to the first one. So I had some immediate ideas supporting the second thought -
1) I wear more t-shirts than ever before
2) I have 7 pair of shoes and a couple of other footwears
3) I still dont sleep and dont cut my nails on time
4) I am scared of my mum catching me while on drinks or while on phone all the time
5) my deadline to reach home is 11 pm only :( (on usual days)
6) I am studying further(already have a Upper First Class Masters Degree ;) ) but I still dont submit my assignments on time
7) I, almost every alternate day, fight with my sister over the property rights of our bed. She is thin, short and a teen but covers more space on bed than I do. Usually with her books and notebooks..she is not supposed to use right side of the bed under any circumstances.
8) Every morning, I tell my mother that I dont want to take tiffin with me!
9) I bunk my office
10) I always try new salon but never satisfed with my haircut........

I am not sure about the results, but I think this debate must continue to keep me at par. A lot has happened in past 3 months, as it must, including some business investments(a new computer, new employee -show off), trip to VAISHNO DEVI, getting caught while drunk, started gymming, tickets to LADAKH(finally), papa bought a new car (Wagon-R), trip to RANIGANJ (near Kolkota) and much more. But highlights are VaishnoDevi Trip, and Raniganj.

I asked Ankita(my sister) in the morning of the day we were going to Vaishno Devi if she wants to come along. NO was her reply. Our train was at around 9.30pm, we had to leave home for station at around 8.30pm and Ankita changed her mood and, now, wanted to join us for the trip. She was really quick to pack her bag and soon we were in train with Rohit(janu).. we paid double price for Ankita's ticket as she was travelling without ticket- we didn't have time to buy it.

We were accompanied by Rohit(Topa), topa's girl friend, Ashesh, Nidhi(Ashesh's girl),DharamVEER, and Seema(Veer's wife) the next morning at NHPC's guest house (courtesy-topa). Journey begins to bhawan and we climbed quite very quickly as compare to always. used VIP pases for darshan(courtesy-topa) and back to guesthouse by afternoon. so much of complications with Ankita's return ticket and still ended up by paying double once again.

I didn't, even for once, regretted taking ankita with me on trip with 3 couples unless topa promised me to not climb upto his girlfriend's seat at night because my sister was there and then broke his promise out of desperation and assuming that I was sleeping and wont come to know.. Whatever..... I saw his quickest of moves, no expressions of guiltyness, no signs of respect (respect to my only ever request to him and my younger sister)..

Raniganj is a small and not so common city near Kolkota. It is better known as "Black Diamond City" coz of soooo many coal mines... to my surprise, its a very very clean city, have some big hospitals, hundreds of gold shops, so many luxory cars (a looot of them), and girls are in majority in that city :D. Not so often I get a chance to meet so many relatives at same place and all eager to see you marrying next..haha... We(all cousins) did a parody at the ring ceremony and I hosted it. grrrreatttt fun, and few sleepless nights. I slept 20 hrs in train afterwards :).

going to Ladakh next month... and I am sooooooooo excited about it...... we will be going by volvo from Delhi-Manali...stay in Manali for a day and a night... take a Zeep from Manali to Rohtangpass to Keylong to Leh.....going through the most panaromic road in India - they say it!

Its 1.40 am now, and I have to reach a client's place at 9.45am. I need to study his website and do the critics to an existing and fairly well developed website - I wish I get the deal, its much needed now... will write again for few other things soon (before going to Ladakh)....

Sunday, February 15, 2009

The Urge - The Weekend

Not always I stay as excited as today - Not always I have reasons for this :)

My team is working on a project since 16th January and its going live today.. Excitement to see it functioning is making me restless and thought of unknown bugs ruining it all is making me even more restless.. We still have four hours before it goes live and I am sure to survive till then... If i survive after that, I see more reasons for survival of my company..Lol.

Another reason for my excitement is tonight's party.. I have plans to drink today and drink a lot..may be more :) ... Its Dharmveer's bachelors party tonight - I asked him for a party thousand of times while our Mussoorie trip. I have never been to a bachelors party before but I heard ther's always an arrangement for girls/striptease..lol, but dharmveer is arraning none!! Anyways, the lucky dog(bull actually) is going to marry his girl friend on next saturday, 28th february 2009.. I feel so happy for him as he is going to get what he wanted from years.. Also, I envy him a little at the same time...

As the matter of fact, I told my mum that I am going to a bachelors party tonight.. "ohh, bachelors party..hhhmmm" that was her reaction along with a sweet smile... Without telling any lies, I also told her that I will be staying overnight with my friends. I made it quite obvious to her to ask if I have plans for drinks and thats why I want to stay away - that was straight !! Okay.. Enough!! Truth works but not always. so I immediatedly told her that I dont have any such plans and its just that we have plan to play cards and we may go to see taj mahal, mathura and vrindavan tomorrow morning... His party is in Faridabad and it takes around 3 hours from there to reach TajMahal.
All this conversation was immediately conveyed to my dad and he said nothing but a smile :)

Its Saturday and it has been quite a hectic week throughout. Dark circles around my eyes are more visible now and I really really need to get proper sleep :( . its going to be a looooong night tonight as well and I have no idea about tomorrow. Although I must sleep all day tomorrow I am sure that I wont sleep before one or two hours after midnight towards monday. Its Sunday!! the only break in seven days...the only day I get to do other things than work... the day I look for all week :)

While my days as a waiter and cashier in Scotland, I always used to wonder how these people are crazy for weekends. They will celebrate weekend as if its the national day (night may be)... If, for any reasons, they stay at home on saturday nights - they will be creeping for it the complete next week. I think I am very much the same now. no matter if I am tired or not well, I just cant sleep or stay at home on sundays. I have this strrrrrrooooong urge to go out and spoil some money.. spoil money on anything which I dont need to.. eat out even when not well.. shop even when i need nothing.. go for drive even when fuel costs a fortune.. watch movie even when its a flop! we always find ways to not to save money, dont we?

Friday, January 23, 2009

New year - New hopes - New desires - New approach

Finally a very very tough and long year has ended. 2008 has been quite an experience for me which includes start up of my company, lots of harsh words with my previous business partner, break up with my girl friend, couple of exciting road trips, many business trips, Personal loan (for business), some tight deals, and lots and lots of thinking...

2009 has given me some happiness already. Sam(my programmer) brought wonderful cake on 1st January as we were working that day. I got confirmation for two good deals within first two weeks of the month. New staff for my company on 16th jan...Celebrated my company's first anniversary on 18th jan.. Organized 25th marriage anniversary for my parents on 20th jan. got a confirmed deal (third :) ) today...bought a new computer today... holidays for two consecutive days this weekend... and projects going on at a decent speed.

After so much sorrow and pain last year, I feel as if I am in a bliss now.. I am not sure if this happiness is going to stay for long but I just hope that the best will last forever and ever...... I had a meeting today with an existing client and I reached on time as well. He asked me to wait for some time as he was busy with some un-invited buyers. His buyer was a angry lady shouting most of the times i could hear her for delaying the shipment for some reasons. That angry lady shouted for so long that my client didn't get time for me and he had a flight to catch then.. Disappointed me asked him "if I will drop you to the airport and we can discuss things on the way ?".

I wasn't sure about my client's response but he simply gave me a smile and didn't say anything and I assumed his answer was a "Thanks but no thanks". After a while he ordered some man on intercom to put his luggage into my car and his driver can go home - that amused me :).... I knew I had 20 minutes to talk before we reach airport and I started shooting right on the target...gave my quote verbally and explained him the benefits of working with me.. It was it and we reached the airport and while saying thanks to me for dropping him at airport, he also confirmed that he is going to give this order to me....... I feel soooooooooo good now...before asking him at his office that if I can drop him- I thought I should say "please continue with your work Sir, I will come some other time".

That little chance has made my day soo much better and I am happily writing this post. I took a chance two years back to start my company in partnership and was equally happy with what I was doing.. Nevertheless, I was doing good and I still stand by that decision.

Within last two years of my working career, I have learned to make immediate and strong decisions. Actually, I think I was forced to learn this.. Clients asking for price proposals within two minutes, final negotiations, deadlines, giving/not giving salary hikes, and so on. I can feel that decisions now are much matured than decisions earlier. For instance, taking ASUS MOTHER BOARD OVER INTEL ORIGINAL, going for a DVD writer or using old CD writer, going for Nvidia graphics card enable motherboard or the ordinary one.. Every small decision has a price disadvantage but feature and speed advantage. Speed will increase productivity but price will make things even tough.....

I do follow some old traditions like not buying expensive things on Saturday so I have asked my vendor to give delivery today itself. its 7.37pm already and he is about to reach..I saved 300 bucks as I will do the windows and software installation myself and I think I will do it tonight only.

Its Friday today and I have three movies due now - Ghajini, Slumdog millionaire, and Raaz 2. I think I can go for two of them this long weekend and it will be a tough decision again to choose two movies out of three. its 7.40 pm now and Sam is very eager to go home and I think I shall ask him to leave or else he will curse me till the time he reaches home for making him late. Also, I shall stop writing now and arrange CD's for windows(pirated), office(pirated), and antivirus (original ha ha!). I only wanted to showoff that finally I am moving towards buying original softwares which comes within my budget. Also, I dont watch bollywood movies on pirated DVD's anymore - I have no choice but to see Hollywood movies on pirated dvd's as they are on screen for limited time only.

I hope to write again with even better news and even happily :).... c u till then..